Not Good Enough? I'll fucking show you.

It's been a long time. I know no one really reads my bullshit. I started this blog with the intention of selling my books. I haven't done that. I also intended to write about a lot of scary shit, but I haven't done that either. I've been busy and depressed. I also started this with the intention of impressing a man that obviously could not be impressed by me no matter what I did. Anyway, this post won't have much point to it other than what's been on my mind lately. It won't be in theme with this blog either.

There’s always been this quote from the movie “Legally Blonde” that really stuck with me. A lot of people make fun of that movie. A lot of people don’t consider that movie quote-worthy. You know why? Sexism. Don’t shake your head at me. Or to quote Dawn Summers, from Buffy the Vampire Slayer, "Don't give me shock-face." People will continue to applaud action guy-movies and the women who like them are the “cool-girls.” People condemn Legally Blonde because it is the quintessential chick flick. It is even referenced in an episode of The Office as being “embarrassing” to have on your list of movies you’d bring to an island where you’d eventually die or some shit. And I usually love The Office and its role in calling out sexism, but not that episode. It's considered a “guilty pleasure". . . which is actually pretty fucked up. By the way, who made up the term of “guilty pleasure?” A man who loved Legally Blonde, that’s who.

Anyway. I really digressed with that point, didn’t’ I? I was trying to say, there is a quote where Elle (the main character of Legally Blonde, aka Reese-fucking-amazing-Witherspoon- yes, that's her actual middle name), goes up to her ex-boyfriend that she’s been trying to please and impress by getting into law school. . . and she's all like, “I’m never going to be good enough for you, am I?” That quote is so fucking simplistic. It’s almost like going up to a bully and saying, “Why are you so mean?” It’s such a simple a question that they are baffled by it. “I am never going to be good enough for you, am I?” No what what I do or what I accomplish. . . I am a tiny woman and you already see me a certain way, and I am never going to change your mind. I will NEVER be good enough for YOU."

If you thought this was going to be inspirational, it's not. It's about acceptance. It's about accepting that people are shitty and will never see your full potential because they don't see all of you.

They see who they think you are, and they've already made up their mind, and there is no changing it. I'm sorry, but it's almost impossible to change someone's mind like that. But if you know they don't really know who you are, who fucking cares? Fuck that ass-hole. Fuck that cock-taco who couldn't take your full-clingy-loving heart.